So what's up next? Bring it.

It's good to see old friends again, like a little Spencerport reunion tonight, and I'm grateful every time we can. Many friends I've seen recently are just starting families, others are in school still and are far from tying the knot, and still others are planning which school to send their little blessings to.

The last two nights have been a reminder of where I'm at now tho, in relation to where I thought I'd be. I might as well write about it briefly.

It's pretty obvious 2008 is turning out drastically different from what I'd envisioned... what I really hoped and prayed for. But it's really just about blazing a new path the best I can now, wherever that might lead, and trusting He'll guide me the right way. Another reminder that things just don't work out the way we want them to.

The Thanksgiving movie choice to see Four Christmases didn't help any more than seeing those around me in real life find a way to come together with kids of their own... helping them grow with joy after the parents were blessed with the same in each others' lives.

I don't want to begin my own family before being ready, I just wonder if I'll ever get my chance at being called Dad. Or maybe i'd prefer Papa, haha. I kinda wanted my kids to remember my grandparents, among other things, and they're not getting any younger. And hey, I kindasortamaybeobviously knew who I wanted their mother to be, right? Just not in the plan. Heck, there's been times I doubted if i'm even supposed to have my own kids. But a lot's changed in recent years. A moment can change a lot too.

Hey, the longer it takes the greater the chance they'll see the 22nd century, right? lol.

But the Lord decides when we're ready, and we just do the best to fulfill the roles we're given when they come.

I guess I'll eventually find out, won't I.

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Jeremiah 29:11
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